Have you ever felt like you’ve been down this road before? Like, wait a minute I already went through this a few years ago, do I have to go down this path again? Haven’t I paid my dues, done my time, learned my lesson?!?! This is how I’ve been feeling lately. I’ve gone through my husband’s career change and subsequent move , a hurricane that destroyed our house, a serious illness (TN) which was debilitating until I had brain surgery to repair damage, (the suicide disease). And now my husband has guillain-barré syndrome which has made it so he has had to go on Family Medical Leave from work., we’ve sold our house and moved to a rental home and my mother now lives with us for half of the year. Life has changed dramatically!
And yet, I realize that as we walk this same road of big life altering changes and everything is topsy turvy and uncertain that what has not changed is that God is walking this path with us. In fact, God already knows the path, is going before us and is directing us as we go. He’s been there everytime! God was with us through the job change and the hurricane homelessness, the crazy illness when I couldn’t smile, eat or sing, (3 of my favorite things to do), and He is walking with us and going before us through the life-changing things that are happening to us now. Everytime He was there! It’s only been December since life has been altered in the Twachtman family but God knew before and was putting things in place as we started down this new journey and as my husband and I keep on walking we see God’s hand in everything that is happening. It’s amazing to see. I’d love to tell you about it in more detail. It’s an amazing story and it’s not over yet. My husband’s illness is one that will not be over soon. Who knows how long we will be in this rental house. Will my husband be able to work again? Will we be able to buy our own house again? Will my mom come to live with us full time? We don’t know. We only know that we’ve been here before, we weathered the storm with God’s grace and goodness and we are trusting in that same God to see us through this one too.
So, if you’re wondering how we’re doing. We’re weary and tired and sometimes grouchy and numb but we are hopeful and our faith is strong. God will see us through this.
If you’re going through a dark time, you’re feeling under attack and you aren’t sure what’s next for you I hope you will hold on to the only One who can see you through this crazy time in your life. God is the answer and faith will give you the strength to get through to the other side.
Keep on holding on!
Blessings, Barbara (aka Mrs. T)
James 1:2-8, Psalm 31:24, Ephesians. 6:10, Romans, 8:28